i forgot how was it like to run on the track with so many other competitors fighting their way through their best time to get into the finals. Back in primary school, i remember being the highlights of Girls group C. i made it to the finals of 100m and 200m and made it out 2nd :) and then representing for MSSS together with the other athletes from other schools. i remember my partner was Madeline Foo. boy, was she fast! she won 1st in her events which was the same as mine.
But that was all back then. Now is now. I've got to wake up and stop dreaming of the past. we won 2nd in 4x100m. :D and in that event, i know WE did our best. In 4x400m, we made it to the finals, but i think i was the only one who didn't do good. I didn't think i did my best. Petra, Rebecca and Lo Vun Tze did good. they caught up with so many other runners. As for me, i don't remember what happen while i was running. All i remember was that i was thinking "just run till the end". that was selfish of me to think that way.
so the finals, i was planning to do my very best for the team but it turned out i wasn't running for the finals. Ammie did. Hmm. Much disappointment :S But it was better off that Ammie was the one running instead of me. She has much stamina, longer legs and could sprint of the whole 400m. Unlike me, who is lack of stamina and only could sprint 300m and then just jog my ass of the last 100m. that sucks. i want to train harder for the next upcoming events. now that i know what's wrong, i should know what to do. train harder.
and higher expectations means higher disappointment if what's expected was to be gone wrong.
I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to upset myself. I just want to do my best.
Tasha, just trust in yourself this time~
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